off meds

hello all.i am just learning to make decisions for myself.ive gone along with the doctors for 11 years.ive decided that i wont take anymore anti-psychotics from now on.they do not work for my pureo ocd.i would rather just live out my life without any side effects.i will continue to take zoloft and clonazapam for depression and anxiety.but the anti-psychotics just make me feel weird,and now that im avoiding any coincidence, ill just have to work them out naturally.i can recognize my ocd repetitive thoughts now, so ill just turn them over to god.they will linger,some for life maybe,but anti-psycotics arent for me.thank god for anti-anxiety pills.
i think i can trace everything back to magical thinking.this is a great thing to remember,the tremendous blow superstition can have on a person.it will leave you paralized.i want no more of it.j