more help

hello all-hope you are enduring.i pray that many of you will take the time to read at least the authors writings of the previous post hyperlink.i know there are too many quotes from the bible,but i think it alleviates our ocd/scrupulosity issues.especially for those of us with some christian background.for those of us with eternal misery issues it says alot.we will all find a need to repent and find the lord.it takes away the issue of eternal punishment/all merciful god apparent contradiction.in the end we will all bow down from our torment and praise the lord.
we will all go to heaven and it is never too late,no matter what coincidences,magical thinking,or anything else our ocd and religious teachings have disillusioned us.j

some help

i found this good article on how hell doesnt exist by a christian.its long but very good.
http://www.sigler.org/slagle/absolute.htm

Echos

I'ts 2:30am, Tuesday morning the 18th of July 2006. I'm sitting in bed listening to my ipod, and I can't stop ruminating over my past with all my failures and it keeps me from being able to sleep tonight and lastnight too. I can't escape the thought that there is always a consequence for a bad decision in life and it drives me crazy and I keep wondering how things coulda been different had I done this or that. People always tell me that they don't live with any shame or regret and to me it's either because everything has always gone right for them or they have always been able to control things into place which would infer that they have nothing to regret or be shameful of....either way it's stupid advice to hear someone say you shouldnt live with regret or shame. I know thats true, dont you think id choose to live without it if I could? How do u begin down the road of positive thinking when u have been predispositioned to be on the defensive your entire life...fuck I don't even know where I'm going with this. Maybe I'm too dang proud and too sensitive at the same time. One day I'm gonna die and I pray that when that day comes I atleast have a sense of what the heck is going on.