paradox

paradox
in a box
one way to faith
or many

one is safe
the other plenty
i like em both
security at one opinion
insecurity of open
mind

is the open-mind closed
and the closed mind open
its a riddle
and we like the riddle
dont we

the power of free will
and choice
just to be chastised
for the 'wrong' choice'?
how fucked is that?

hart like a rat
heart like a sack of
dripping constapation
good way to start the conversation

cant be condemed or we just rebel
and the need for justice
why cant i make up my mind
or do i not want it made up

a poem away from reality

as the world sleeps i stay insane

hello all.well i couldnt sleep so i decided to go out and buy an album at wal-mart at 330 in the morning.i noticed on the album one of the songs was 444 long,but i didnt mind much.knew it was just my fear of a number.i knew ,though when i bought the album,it would be close to 444.,which it is as i type this according to one clock.so i knew id freak at 444 on something.this is it,that i typed that at 444.
now,i know that being afraid of a number is common in ocd,so its cool.im listening to 'the cure'like all the other freaks,yeah!and heres one for ya,most the stuff at advanced auto is priced with 44 or 88 cents for some reason.and wal-mart uses 88 cents alot.the album was 1488.so there are all these derivatives that associate with the number of choice.its all got to do with probability stats.but what a mess of thought to get mixed up in.ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!why cant i be you.j

smart enough to know im sick

what a fucked up disorder.think about it.it hides itself and we hide it,like we should be ashamed of it.then,its not even visible,and if you can articulate to some degree ,your considered smart while having this shit.lol.al li know is the more i know ,the more i realise i dont know shit.
so im going to do the smart thing and go on section 8 housing.then i bet people will think im a genious.lol.an idiot savant with no skills lol.my mind and opinions change like the wind,in a world that values close-mindedness of all types,including religion.
this disease is just plain screwed.j