saner scrupulosity
well today i went through an old deal i picked up from going to church.while passing the book section at the store i looked right at the word witch on a book.this started off catastrophic thinking for me,because it was not until church that i thought witches had power and harry potter could influence kids into sorcery and all that crap.but my magical thinkng and church didnt mix.it made me worse.more superstitious and avoidant of evil things that are really harmless.j
posted by jeff at 5:08 PM
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Man, I always knew you struggled and it does stink. I am grateful that you recognize the OCD for what it is even though it sucks going through it. My OCD focuses on any "religious" activities such as prayer, sermons, etc so I can relate in many ways. Please keep writing as your experiences do help me live through mine and it is helpful to know that I am not alone with the struggles of the mind we both experience. God bless you in your journey.
I see you've been away for some time now and are hopefully doing well, but I wanted to thank you for your thoughts and also for the links on your page... they were very helpful. I'm not sure if you listed the link for the Ten Commandments for the Scrupulous (on the Scrupulous Anonymous site -http://mission.liguori.org/newsletters/scrupulosity.htm), but I found the site helpful, though I'm not Catholic. I also wanted to pass along a thought because I know you were hurting, and I know how terrible the mental pain can be (I'm not Christian or a member of any other religious group, so take this as you may) - it helped me to view God or a higher power as standing beside me through this, helping me as I attempted to refuse to give in to the urge to pray for forgiveness or to think obsessive thoughts. By constantly praying for forgiveness, it was almost as if God and I were in different corners, instead of on the same side. For some reason, the anxiety lessened with that one realization. Anyway, thanks again for your blog and also for the links.
I know myself how much pain and doubt this can cause. You're not alone in this, and you're all in my prayers.
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